It would be a mistake to look at the few things out of a lifetime of a person, that they were credited with, and think that the rest of their days were more or less idle.
I think guys like Moses weren't just idly milling about tending sheep when one day God broke in on their lives and everything changed. Or think about Gideon. What was he doing before God spoke to him in the barn? Was he evil? I don't think so . I think he was faithful, and pursuing to know God.
His story is different than, say Boaz, who was a successful, God-honoring and beloved landowner, who paid attention to his workers' families and concerns. With a guy like Boaz, you could imagine he was a faithful man.
Why wouldn't we think the same about these other men before their lives were used to change the course of history for a nation? Why wouldn't we think the same about ourselves before our own lives were used to change a culture, or disciple a nation?
What I'm getting at is that I do believe God chooses the foolish things of this world- the nobodies- to accomplish His will in their day. And I do believe He draws them out of obscurity to do it. That's a big part of just Who He is.
But I do not believe He chooses men who have settled into a mediocre life, who haven't dared to rock the boat with their questions, or worse, have no questions. Such men end up with little thought of God, and are fairly unmoved by the things of God. That kind of man will die in his obscurity, and never change the world he occupies. They are like sticks in a streambed- the water ripples, passes around them, and continues on its way, unchanged.
But a man who has something churning inside him- some urgency, some discontent, some vision- that man, who wrestles and pursues God for what is stirring inside Him, will find God break in on his life, and see everything change. Because that man is responding to the thing inside him that God put there to be answered. And as he finds answers for that path- which God is leading him on, by the way- he will not be able to help but breach the bank of that stream and redirect its waters. His place in the world will be changed. And we will all be better for it.
So, maybe my idea of faithfulness is different. I say ask your questions. This IS a journey of Discovery. God made the earth and mankind, and you, to express every aspect of His true nature What is God wanting to express through you? I believe it has more to do with what unsettles you, than what gives you peace. Pursue your discontent with God, your indignance, your doubts. You will discover a real life God, and the answers you find will be a real expression of Himself- revealed to you, and to the world through you. It's a daring, off-road journey. You'll be a discoverer. And the world will be changed.